Friday, September 3, 2010

thing i'm digging

Well to start off

As I'm fairly new to reading the bible I have stumbled upon a verse all my self and it's my new favorite

If you are stressed or hurting
Psalm 86

A prayer of David.

1 Hear, O LORD, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
2 Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.
3 Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.
4 Bring joy to your servant,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.
5 You are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abounding in love to all who call to you.
6 Hear my prayer, O LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.
7 In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.
8 Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.
9 All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.
10 For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
12 I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.
13 For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. [a]
14 The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my life—
men without regard for you.
15 But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
16 Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant. [b]
17 Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Ok- I've been struggling....after treatment I seem to be walking on a tight rope!  I'm either happy to be here or sad.  I love that I have the opportunity to take Tamoxifen to fight my cancer, but it's side effects bother me sometimes.  I find it hard to lose weight and in the morning my joints hurt some more than other like my shoulders to the point where I can't lift my arm and flushing the toilet even hurts.  These are all a small price to pay, but I still compare the new me with the old me!  SO then I slack on taking my Tamoxifen and actually I felt a bit better- BUT it's bad to not take it.  The Tamoxifen is blocking my estrogen which is important since my tumor was positive for estrogen- AND now I'm bleeding like the beginning of a period so I'm scared to death that I really screwed things up!  Or maybe the Tamoxifen isn't working for me- which can happen.  I'm so mad at myself- I counted my pills and I skipped taking my Tamoxifen at least 6 times this past month.  What's wrong with me- I guess it's normal- my feelings of sadness.  Family and friends are so happy to have me back, but I'm not back.  I know they want me to lose weight, but sometimes fighting weight reminds me more of my cancer when I would really like to forget the whole thing and just live like everyone else.  I know - feeling sorry for myself a bit.  I'm more trying to figure out what my problem is that I can't get going on the changes I need to make- I've stalled out.  So I'm thinking I'm going to blame it on my house and how messy it is- Maybe I need a project other than myself.LOL
Gee what  a rant.  All that just to explain my love for Psalm 86!

So what else I'm digging...mostly things that make me feel good inside:

A blog that is keeping
 The Christmas Spirit Alive 365 days 
GO over to that blog and feel the Spirit

via Keeping the Christmas Spirit Alive 365

Baby Girls

via annie sullivan photography
  

Romantic Kisses
Jean-Paul Belmondo and Jean Seberg in Breathless
1960 French Film

Jean Seberg in general with her elfin look






And this one hit wonder...it's an oldie!

6 comments:

Natasha said...

I am so sorry to hear that your medication is causing so many problems but, like you said, it must be taken and in the long run it will help. Keeping thinking positive thoughts and rest when you need to. I will certainly keep you in my thoughts and prayers at this stressful time.

How sweet you are to be thinking about other bloggers too-I am so grateful that you mentioned my blog but more importantly, that you like it! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Blessings and best wishes always,
Natasha.

Natasha said...

PS- I forgot to mention that it would great if you could link up that fabulous son to my Sunday Song linky party tomorrow at 5 minutes just for me. It sure is a blast from the past and I would love to show the clip to my kids!

Best wishes,
Natasha.

Five Peas in Our Pod said...

Thanks for putting baby Gia up and giving props to my little photog biz. She's a hard one to resist looking at..
I hope you feel better after ranting. Sending positive strength your way. You're in my thoughts.
Be well!

Danielle said...

Thanks you guys ..I'm away for a bit so that should help. If I can get on Sunday via my phone i will be there Natasha.....sounds fun.

Amy said...

D-

I read this the other day and have been praying for you. You are being reinvented as a cancer survivor and inventions don't happen overnight. Take each day as it comes and treasure them as I know you will. Forget about the negative or hard ones and hold onto those positive days. You have made it through some huge hurdles and you will continue on. You have my love, and all your other friends along with a very loving family that will continue to carry you and lift you in these continued healing days.

Love you
Amy

Natasha said...

Thank you so much for sharing this song for Sunday Song. I am so glad you linked up!

I am sorry I haven't been by earlier but our house flooded this week and then one of our computers broke. What a week!

Hope you have had a lovely week.

Best wishes and happy weekend,
Natasha.