thing i'm digging

Well to start off

As I'm fairly new to reading the bible I have stumbled upon a verse all my self and it's my new favorite

If you are stressed or hurting
Psalm 86

A prayer of David.

1 Hear, O LORD, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
2 Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.
3 Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.
4 Bring joy to your servant,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.
5 You are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abounding in love to all who call to you.
6 Hear my prayer, O LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.
7 In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.
8 Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.
9 All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.
10 For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
12 I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.
13 For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. [a]
14 The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my life—
men without regard for you.
15 But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
16 Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant. [b]
17 Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Ok- I've been struggling....after treatment I seem to be walking on a tight rope!  I'm either happy to be here or sad.  I love that I have the opportunity to take Tamoxifen to fight my cancer, but it's side effects bother me sometimes.  I find it hard to lose weight and in the morning my joints hurt some more than other like my shoulders to the point where I can't lift my arm and flushing the toilet even hurts.  These are all a small price to pay, but I still compare the new me with the old me!  SO then I slack on taking my Tamoxifen and actually I felt a bit better- BUT it's bad to not take it.  The Tamoxifen is blocking my estrogen which is important since my tumor was positive for estrogen- AND now I'm bleeding like the beginning of a period so I'm scared to death that I really screwed things up!  Or maybe the Tamoxifen isn't working for me- which can happen.  I'm so mad at myself- I counted my pills and I skipped taking my Tamoxifen at least 6 times this past month.  What's wrong with me- I guess it's normal- my feelings of sadness.  Family and friends are so happy to have me back, but I'm not back.  I know they want me to lose weight, but sometimes fighting weight reminds me more of my cancer when I would really like to forget the whole thing and just live like everyone else.  I know - feeling sorry for myself a bit.  I'm more trying to figure out what my problem is that I can't get going on the changes I need to make- I've stalled out.  So I'm thinking I'm going to blame it on my house and how messy it is- Maybe I need a project other than myself.LOL
Gee what  a rant.  All that just to explain my love for Psalm 86!

So what else I'm digging...mostly things that make me feel good inside:

A blog that is keeping
 The Christmas Spirit Alive 365 days 
GO over to that blog and feel the Spirit

via Keeping the Christmas Spirit Alive 365

Baby Girls

via annie sullivan photography
  

Romantic Kisses

Jean-Paul Belmondo and Jean Seberg in Breathless

1960 French Film

Jean Seberg in general with her elfin look

And this one hit wonder...it's an oldie!