Getting Ready for Valentine's Day

Here's what I got so far for Valentine's Day project:Some Vday decorations

What to wear on Vday

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Yesterday was difficult, but as so many other times during this whole thing great things happen.

I went for a walk with my mom yesterday and it was the same walk we took so many times when I first found out I had cancer. Those walks saved me from going crazy, but they were hard. So now when I walked the walk it was really stressful for me. It's like living it again. So I was a bit stressed over that.


When I got home I quickly wanted to make a haircut appointment and browse dresses.


My hair is really bothering me lately. I need to get it cut before it actually starts falling out, and I'm just not that into it. So I call my hairdresser and she's in Miami (lucky her), and that stresses me out too.


Quickly I browse dresses because I have a wedding in Feb and I realize that now instead of just looking for a dress to make me look skinny(typical worry before bc), I'm for something with sleeves and not low cut.
I don't know.........then I'm thinking of my wig and how it's going to look with my dress and I get really nervous. Usually during tough situations I can slow down and figure things out, but this time I couldn't find myself. I couldn't picture myself as I am. My mind has not caught up to what my body has become. So many things were done and are happening, I'm just now catching up to them. The physical part of everything has been great; no major pain and scarring, range of motion all seem great. I did read somewhere that the physical healing is much faster than the emotional healing. Guess so.


So as it turns out I get a call from my Reach For Recovery person and it couldn't come at a better time. She spoke to me about triggers, doctors, kids, hormones and scans and I felt better.
Reach For Recovery is through the American Cancer Society. They have been great.


I also received in the mail from a friend, scriptures for healing! How weird is that?
Here's what it said:

God's Medicine

(To be spoken by mouth three times a day until faith comes, then once a day to maintain faith. If your circumstances grow worse, double the dosage. There are no harmful side effects!)


Ok and One Scripture I really liked:
You have given me abundant life; I receive that life through Your Word and it flows to every organ of my body, bringing healing and health.


So I feel real bad for feeling bad, because I'm so blessed that my cancer was caught!!!!!!
I just have to keep telling myself it's all normal. I feel so much better this morning.


I am fighting off a cold so that doesn't help my state of mind.


I have no idea what my hair will look like after today. I just booked with some person I've never met.