ok....I'm going to try this

I found out I have breast cancer......................Invasive Ductal Carcinoma.

Rob suggested I get back on my blog because I'm totally stressed out. It's new to me so at times I don't want to talk to people about it because some things they say scare me.

I'm going to make this short.

I am a fighter so I'll fight Breast Cancer. I am so happy for my life and need to look at every day as a HUGE blessing.

I find it hard to cry- It just won't come out of me. Every morning is like waking up to a nightmare.

BUT I've been talking to some amazing women.

I will have a mastectomy within a the month. Does this bother me- No. I don't like when people look at me and cry because it scares me. I will have chemo and that scares people too. It's OK so many women do it every day.
I will be getting a second opinion in NYC, because that is what any person should do when planning for a health issue.
I may look into reconstruction- seems weird to me but hey it's worth a shot.

Gee I'm finally crying typing this blog. I feel so bad for all the women who are struggling.

I've been praying a lot and I love when people pray for me! The Saint I pray to well, there are 2 my little angel St Theresa and my inspiration for patience, St. Peregrine. You can look these Saints up. Wonderful people.

Right now I'm praying for healing and also praying for my nerves to calm down so my body will be in top shape to aid in the healing of itself.

Please continue to pray for me and don't be offended if I can't talk to you. Some days are hard. There is nothing to say except I CAN DO IT.

Examine your own breasts- really good! Check under your nipple and all over. Get mammograms. And if there is something that doesn't feel right - GET it checked. Don't look it up on the internet- GO to your doctor. Thank GOD my doctor found my lump.

Maybe I'll write more another day.

My family has been great.