Please don't take my Estrogen away

I'm wondering if my medication that cuts down on my estrogen is causing my brain to shrink or something like that.

I don't know what it is- but I keep forgetting things and losing things!  Anymore I can't handle a lot of things at one time.  This past week I had lost my fluff, ipod and totally forgot about my mortgage payment!  I know I have things on my mind like my appointment with my oncologist and my D&C- but still.  I feel horrible because there are some people who call me and I don't remember to call them back and as much as I try to explain some don't understand and I guess I don't blame them- it's sounds a little dumb.  My poor trainer- I don't know how many times I screwed up that appointment- Finally Rob offered to make sure I knew the times.  I need to write everything down- but at times I don't.  I was usually pretty good at remembering things.

I did after many times of sitting and thinking and thinking about my ipod and fluff that the mystery was solved.  And this was after I said a prayer to St. Anthony.  I forget somethings and then I sit and try and to figure out what it is I can't remember.  Like there is a person I can not remember her name and before I actually ask Rob I am trying to figure it out myself- so what you do is picture the person and then try and then try to picture someone using their name- in this case I keep trying to picture Rob saying this person's name- in different setting like at the person's house or in my kitchen where Rob and I chat.  Well this has been going on for 2 weeks and well I NOW just remembered the name.  Yeah.  

I've been bad about taking some of my vitamins and I think I notice it in my joints - because they hurt more than usual- I think the fish oil helps my joints a lot.  My energy seems low- but that's to be expected.  I just haven't felt like myself.  I could be that I was without my ipod and fluff- who knows!  

The holidays were great- we got to see all our family members and it was great!  It was so relaxing and just plain good.  I used to dread the holidays a bit because of the stress of getting to see everyone and the shopping, but now I just don't seem to be bothered by it.  I had all these great intentions this holiday like cooking, shopping and so on, but I forgot about Lucas having  a tournament and I just ran out of energy.

So anyways.....Rob is away today and I can't tell you how many times I went to call him about something- like I forgot my house keys, do you have a taco kit at home and something else but I forgot what!  Gee he's only been gone since 5am and I've gone to call him 3 times.  It never used to be like that- I don't think.  Well maybe.....maybe it's just now I feel so dependent on him after everything we have been through it's hard to be with out him.

I did get to have dinner with Doorways Sisters and it was so nice to see all them and chat about our going- ons.

I'm also working on my Etsy shop again!  I'm so bad- there's never enough time to do everything

I really need to get moving on that shop...yikes!

Anyways....

 When we were in the city I found this great tie for Karl

And this cute hut for him 

 And what about me?

Oh yes Maggie I did get you something 

 Haha Maggie you look ridiculous

 Here's a couple Thanksgiving pictures 

My boy My joy

The more the Merrier 

 Sweet little girls

 Joey

Boys they keep it fun

 I love Nicole's open mouth on this one..............lol 

 Sammy-XO

 Benny took this one- not bad!

 By the end of the day............we all feel like this

Benny

Yep I didn't take enough pictures.....I'm a dork and I probably forgot!

We attempted to have Maggie's 1st Sleepover over the holiday vacation- her sister Bella came over

 Well poor Bella missed her mom and dad so we had to take her home sometime after midnight.